Yes I know you

Yes I know you
you are the one that kills me every second
the one who reminds me of the past
you wake up the devil inside me
you make me worse of what I can be

Yes it's true I pretend to be reincarnated
but you decide my life
sometimes I even forget - Am I dead or alive?
yes I do know you.
You are the name of my fear
but how could I run away from you
you are the face I see in the mirror...

NJOY

Tears from the sky

She is missing me up there
I'm crying fro her embress
but she ain't no more
I'm sure she is crying in heaven
coz she knows my pain
she can't see me suffering
look, look she washed me off
I could feel the rain
her tears fall on me
I feel her touch
I hope she could listen me
I would say hush
Hummm...she just stopped crying
Now I can feel her smile...


NJOY   

26/11 an year after... (26/11/2009)

Hello...
It's been an year for the worst thing done by the few people for few fu**in' reasons....
Remember what happened last year on he very same day...
Few terrorists came to my land and made some wounds that are still to be healed..
There were many reasons n many situations... but the ultimate consequences were experienced by me...
Politicians, defense ministry and my own security were held on tip...
What is my existence? Who I am? What's my future? These are some questions that have to be face by myself.... Yes, just by myself...
An year has passed... still that fu**in' Azmal Kasab is nutritioned by my Government....
Where I have no food to eat and my children die widout...
My wife waits for me all the night... She prays every second for me to stay alive....
I am a father who goes home late, I am a son who's old mother needs his help...
I fight for your safety...
Your security....
your homes....
Do I have all this? Isn't it my right?
It's not only me to face,
Yes, we all policemen do...
I am very proud to be what I am...
Though my profession is a slang...
I do believe in me...
I am a Mumbaikar...
I am a Mumbai police...
Still alive but can't say how long am I gonna be...!

NJOY...
Peace...

† Time †

It's the only thing that you me n everyone has got.....
Someone is just dead and someone just made a start....
Wen it goes bad it gives a pain for a while...
and sometimes it changes all yours sorrows to a smile...
Time is the best healer....
It made me learn most of the things on my own....
I thank.... I had my time whether it was good or bad...
I got something....
Something I could never survived without...
That something I find in my best friend....
Yes and it was you...

<<<<<HAVE A GOOD TIME>>>>>
NJOY

The girl you used to be

where is that girl
she is my best friend or more
the friend i need everywhere i go
she is my pleasure she is my cry
she used to say everything I liked
everything seems very strange to see
This's not the girl you used to be

I know you are the same girl
you made it all change
I;m trying to make just a start
don;t think i;m lazy
i;m trying so hard
but my faith just takes me apart
everything seems very strange to see
This's not the girl you used to be

20 Roses...!

20 roses in my hand
hidden right at my back
I'll gift her...
she'll ask me for a  hug
making smile she'll berg
ya, I'll keep my head on shoulder
she'll gently close my eyes
but I would see her face right
that's fixed inside
we'll sit on the grass
she will stare at me, a glace
I'd have lost in dreams

20 roses in my hand
how long do I have to stand?
seems like the time washed after that
Now, I look down she is 6 feet under
headstone says 'Oh man! she's ain't no more.'

20 roses in my hand
look here still I stand
she wants my hug
I know she needs
she loves me so deep
Now she'll come
I know she will come
There's cross on her grave
I'm sure she is safe
I keep these 20 roses here
I'm sure someday she'll come and take..

I'm knowing....

NJOY...
12 April 2010

Let me cry...!

Let me cry
Don't console,
let me cry inside the dark shadows of my fruitless life,
rootless efforts n ruthless pride,
let the tears dry,
as they burn my harms...
Wounds on my face and heart full of scars,
It seems it'd never end,
as it has run me so far..
Let me take the pain,
Now I can't get me apart...

Take out your kind hands,
let me get alone,
no need of sympathy,
my fate is such cruel..!
It might be the compensation for the mistakes I've made..
I must have done something wrong,
now I gotta suffer to be pure..

Lord has an eye
on what I'm suffering through...
All I could say him is just Thanks to you..



NJOY...

18 Dec. 2009

Rain... Again...

Rain,
this rain makes me fall in love...
oh! it's raining again...
I smell the soil like I'm born again..
drops on her eyelets make me smile again..
Oh this rain...!
Yeah sometimes I love when it rains...

I remember the last when I shared an umbrella with her..
she was in my arm and we're walking together..
It was a pink rain, now I miss her..
I wish now, i could be with her..
so may be she's also missing me,
my eyes wanna see..
why can't we get wet in the rain?
feel the rain, all again..
but in the end, it's all the same...
It would give me some pain, when it's gone..

but I know it will rain again,
to make me fall in love, again...
Oh this rain...!
Yeah, now I've started loving rain...

NJOY
SMILE